I finally understand what it means by the quote "Its hard being a teenager".

It abso-effingly is! With hormones raging in every direction, the pressure of looking fabulous and stress of acing every single exam, no wonder why the media makes dramas about teenagers because the teenage years, must be the most dramatic time of one's life.

I haven't experienced so many feelings and emotions in one go. ever… until this year.

One good friend of mine asked me a very personal question that I never asked myself before. It was "do you have a lot of things bottled up?" Indeed I do. I want to say a lot of things but I know there will be consequences so of course I do not say it.  It remains that way..now and forever.

I've experienced conflict with every factor of my life and this year the factor with the most disputes would have to be my friends, my one treasure that I fight for so it would not be lost. It feels like I can't keep up this fight anymore.  Where did I go wrong? I always kept my guard for each and every one of you, yet you guys let me down so much this year. I know it is partly my fault but why can't you guys accept that its half your fault as well?  Why must you blame certain factors that you think are obstacles to our friendship when clearly, the only factor is ourselves.

I can accept that. I can finally take responsibility for every action that happens in my life.. so its time for you guys to do that as well.