well... as my beloved ones knows , my birthday is coming up and I always get that reptitive question of "what do you want?" and I will always respond with "nothing!!!" and its true, all I need is your friendship BUT for the people who dont take nothing as an answer here are my recommendations, I dont expect these but if you want.... you can LOL I LOVE YOU ALL OKAY even without the presents because friendship and love is more valuable than goods :)

 

URBAN ORIGNALS WALLET IN BLACK $80

 

BOOK YOUTH IN REVOLT BY C.D. PAYNE

REMINGTON SLIM WET 2 STRAIGHT HAIR STRAIGHTNER $120

GWEN STEFANI L.A.M.B PERFUME $80?

 

 

NOKIA E70- LOL TOO EXPENSIVE.

 

RIPCURL UTOPIA CARRY ON LAPTOP BAG $80

SONY 4GB MP3 PLAYER $180

EMILIANA TORRINI ME & ARMINI ALBUM

 

COLDPLAY TICKETS =(

If I was asked .."what do you want?" I would immediately say to control time. I realised the problems that I have been encountering aren't due to certain factors, it all adds up to time. Time this time that. I blame time for friends to drift, I blame time for not letting me to complete my studying, I blame time for the days to end quicker and I blame time for endings.

 

For a change i will blog about my day because I realized I always blog about my problems..IM NOT A DRAMATIC PERSON OKAY!!! okay that was a tad bit dramatic..

Im so proud of myself, I BAKED CUPCAKES!!!!! These cupcakes are for pink ribbon day which is going to be held at school on monday at recess and lunch. For any fairvalers reading this, Milkshakes & Cupcakes will be sold to raise money for breast cancer research so come and enjoy..my exquisite cupcakes =D Dont worry, i've already tasted them and im still alive so trust me trust me.

Saturdays are my favourite days because its the only day I am free to do whatever I desire and also because I can sleep in, got to love my sleep! I had an epiphany when I woke up this morning, do you ever have that feeling when everything goes absolutely wrong but you know it'll be alright? Yeah, I never got that feeling ever, wonder what provoked it? Lifes bizzare, well my life is. I was meant to have a piano exam today but my teacher cancelled on me!!! ARGH. im never going to quit.

The rest of the afternoon will be spent watching Breakfast at Tiffanys and eating curry =D I LOVE INDIAN CUISINES!! But part of me wants to go out...its a saturday night!!!

V.

if feels as if all my blog entries either start off with, contain within it or end with "..it's been ages since my last blog entry!"

so i've decided to turn over a new leaf! (oh wait...that quote is still there! damnit..nvm then..)

Significant day today was, if my life was modern history then today's date would definitely have to be remembered by all HSC students. yes definitely. but then again, i don't do history. Today marked what felt like the giving up of the nappy by a baby. Today was yr 11 sign out day! like that baby, we no longer have the security & the support offered prior. it's hsc now.. the big game haha. like that baby (yes again), i feel like crying and pooping my pants ..... alright maybe not the latter, tad bit gross much LOL

aw... i need to go to work now , i'll get back in a jiffy

 

 

TO THIS PERSON:

 We've been there for you, through thick and thin, we've helped you pick yourself up through your hardest times yet you don't seem to appreciate us as much as we appreciate you. If you do, care for us like I think you do, I suggest its time for you to speak up because right now, it doesn't seem that way. Im always here for you, you know that, so if anything is wrong you can always speak to me about it.

 

It's funny how words can reflect oneself. Some say "A picture is worth a thousand words" but if the picture is confusing and lack content..what's the point? You might as well explain the whole damn thing. When things go wrong.. you expect a simple "sorry" to fix everything, obviously It only works if you really mean it. Personally, sorrys don't work for me sometimes, I know its pretty pessimistic but if the situation is really unfixable and contain a lot of emotional baggage.. I don't think a sorry would work.

Nevertheless here are my lists of 'sorrys' to my beloved friends, past friends, family and people who have came in and out of my life.  

 

Im sorry that my selfishness can get out of hand at times

 

Im sorry for all the people that have loved me yet I haven't given that love back.

 

Im sorry for being emotional and distressed to an extent that could get people upset

 

Im sorry for my pms times

 

Im sorry for not understanding certain issues, I really try to

 Im sorry for misunderstanding situations and coming up with my own conclusions

 

Im sorry if I've ever disappointed anyone

 

Im sorry if I take jokes too far and hurt people's feelings

 

Im sorry if I've ever teased anyone, it was really unintentional

 

Im sorry if I've ever made anyone waited

 

Im sorry for any confusion I have brought about

 

And lastly,

 

Im sorry if I've ever hurt anyone, it was definitely never on purpose.

They say no news is good news, I say in certain circumstances this is vaguely correct.

 

Yesterday, it was Jessie's Fairvale outing, although it wasn't meant to be a girls' night out, it ended up to be one. I can't remember when the last time I had a girls' night out was but it was damn fantastical, especially the two hours of karaoke. I can't imagine how so much fun can be brought about in a not so spacious room filled with bacteria, fashionable lights and a Korean feel. I guess the foundation of great things can be brought about by people and not institutions or places.

 

Pressure is a bitch. Why must it treat me like this?? There's so much pressure in my life right now and it irritates me. I want to enjoy the ride of life, not ride through it under pressure.

 

Advice: when life is hard, watch a walk to remember =)

It's the last night before school starts again, this time when I return it won't be the same anymore. This time I have to seriously be serious about school because it's the HSC year. I really hope I would be serious but I hate it how things are finally becoming interesting in my life and I have to wind down just for a very important reason. Life is so unfair. :(

 

This holidays by far have been the best holidays I've ever been through for the past few years. It was so great to just have fun without having thoughts of "studying" or having a duty that I must fulfill.

 

On a more personal note,

 

Have you ever met someone and instantly clicked? What about a person that was so alike to you, you could say "if you were the opposite sex, you'll definitely be this person"

I know this is so common but being sixteen, I finally experienced the "click" with someone. And this similarity thing, it spins me out.

 

So the question of the night is..

WHAT DO I DO?

WHAT DO I DO?

WHAT DO I DO?

 

 

 

V.

-black mood lens sunnies by Le Specs ! eeeeeeeeeEEEee =D hrmm.. the lenses look clear-ish here but normally its black.

 

 

-the LG viewty ! i need a new fone

-light blue (brown threading), cigarette, high rise Wrangler jeans 

-jazz shoes, white.. the ones i fell in love with in General Pants co but cannot find a decent pic.. they had ..small holes in them similar to lacoste's holes.

 

- an avocado tree LOL =D

-LOL i vant....

I finally understand what it means by the quote "Its hard being a teenager".

It abso-effingly is! With hormones raging in every direction, the pressure of looking fabulous and stress of acing every single exam, no wonder why the media makes dramas about teenagers because the teenage years, must be the most dramatic time of one's life.

 

I haven't experienced so many feelings and emotions in one go. ever… until this year.

One good friend of mine asked me a very personal question that I never asked myself before. It was "do you have a lot of things bottled up?" Indeed I do. I want to say a lot of things but I know there will be consequences so of course I do not say it.  It remains that way..now and forever.

 

I've experienced conflict with every factor of my life and this year the factor with the most disputes would have to be my friends, my one treasure that I fight for so it would not be lost. It feels like I can't keep up this fight anymore.  Where did I go wrong? I always kept my guard for each and every one of you, yet you guys let me down so much this year. I know it is partly my fault but why can't you guys accept that its half your fault as well?  Why must you blame certain factors that you think are obstacles to our friendship when clearly, the only factor is ourselves.

 

I can accept that. I can finally take responsibility for every action that happens in my life.. so its time for you guys to do that as well.

 

 

HELLO FRIEND!

i don't mean to point out the obvious but i havn't blogged in a very long time... possibly since around same time i borrowed my -now extremely overdued- library books. Seriously... i'm in debt to Liverpool library LOL i owe them lik 20 dollars! well technically my older sister does since it's her library card that i used. hahaaaaaaa

lol i was on a roll n then someone talked to me on msn n now i don't know what to blog about anymore! OH GG

 

i'll blog later i pwomise